Winter memories and Christmas

As winter's gnawing on my toes, I'm reminded of last winter and how much has changed since. People have come into and no doubt gone from my life, strangely though I can't think of anyone who's 'left' my life all together, maybe those that have never did anything significant enough for them to stick in my mind. It's been eleven months or there-abouts since I had my first ballet lesson, and oh how things have progressed. I've developed a few habits I'm not so proud of in the past eleven months, and a few which I'm delighted to say I've finally gotten to grips with. The picture above is from January I believe, and was taken by my lovely friend Heather, who I don't see as much of outside of school these days. My memories of her go all the way back to junior school, a time when we didn't get along, to put it nicely. I didn't get along with many people then actually. Bit of a nerd, teacher's pet, whatever. Mum says that I was 'bullied', but I don't like to use the term, I feel I brought a lot of it on myself, and that's not me blaming myself, it's the truth. I was a pretentious know it all, I guess. Strange how things have changed? Now-a-days I have a seemingly strongly bonded group of friends, who I think of as being quite alternative in pretty much every aspect of anything you can imagine. There's a mix of people, so it's not hard to have something in common with any one of them, making it easy to get along with all of them. I'm grateful for that, because no-one likes to feel alone. That's me up there, being happy with a friend, like a 'normal' teenager.

Christmas is creeping up like a bandit, as it always does and as always I don't know what on Earth to get for my parents, or friends for that matter! I pledge that from this day when someone asks me what I'd like for Christmas, I'll tell them straight what I'd like for them to get me, or even publish a list as long as that doesn't make me sound selfish?! At least then it'll be easy for people to know what at least one person on their list wants! I think that's partly the reason for my confusion as to what to get people, no one dares ask for something for fear of seeming rude. Whatever happened to "if you don't ask, you won't get"?

Big love to all those I hold dear, I needn't mention names.